Our First Christmas...

Merry Belated Christmas Everyone!!!
I had been wanting to avoid this season, as horrible as that sounds...Our first Christmas since Caleb's accident. Memories of last Christmas filled my mind. Shopping made me want to cry as I looked at all the toys that Caleb would just enjoy so much being a normal four year old boy. I wanted to buy the whole store for him. Material things don't matter to me...but it still brought me feelings of depression. As we filed into the malls filled with people, stares bombared us everywhere we went. I was appaled that so many adults would be so rude and stare so much with no care in the world. One woman walked into someone else because she was staring so much! The people drove me away from wanting to take Caleb anywhere with a huge crowd. I was warned about that but didn't experience it until just these last two weeks. I wanted this Christmas to be "normal" meaning that I wanted to do everything that we do every year. But in a differnt spirit...with much more gratitude to Jesus.
Patrick (our nurse) and I took the boys to see the Christmas lights and we took them on the train ride (which Caleb fell asleep on towards the end). We took our family picture...Christmas Eve was spent at home with my family and Christmas day was spent with Brandon's family. It was as normal as usual.
We had bought Micaiah a pretty big gift and wanted to buy something for Caleb too but didn't know what to get him. We want to order him a bunch of stuff from a new catalog we got but it most definitely wouldn't have been here by Christmas. Anyhow, I was really emotional the night before the eve as I was driving home. I was thinking about how horrible it was that we didn't get anything "big" for Caleb. I started crying and praying to God. I knew that Caleb didn't want any (material) gift in the world. All he wants is to be able to be normal again...to walk and talk...and do what all 4 year old boys do. Anyways, I prayed that God would give him his gift...at least a little bit of it on Christmas. Well after Christmas came and went and I didn't see anything really big happening and I was discouraged...But then it was as if God spoke to me as I laid down last night...He gave us his son Jesus on Christmas! That's what we celebrate! He gave Caleb Jesus! My prayers were answered as I drifted off to sleep, I remembered that Jesus is healing Caleb...everyday! I gotta keep on watching...God's working in him! Oh, and for the present that didn't really matter anyways...we ended up finding something for him at Sharper Image on Christmas Eve that he absolutely loves! Score!
I'm sorry that I haven't blogged in so long. My computer is out of commission. I'm using my brother's one right now but I wanted to post a picture up. I can't because it's saved on my computer. So sorry but I will put it up later.
I think Brandon was having a difficult time emotionally. I would of probably been even more of a wreck if I wasn't so busy. Busy-ness keeps me away from my emotions...which can be good at times.
Micaiah is such a great little brother! On Christmas day Caleb was in his stander and as usual his head started going forward. My mom had looked away for a second and was looking at Micaiah. Micaiah took his pacifier out of his mouth, pointed at Caleb, and said "baba!" He was trying to get my mom's attention towards Caleb...and it worked! Tonight as we were doing physical therapy with Caleb, Micaiah went and grabbed Caleb's cloth which was hard for him to get as it was quite high for him. He finally got it and came over and wiped his brother's mouth. (Caleb often blows bubbles from his mouth) It was so cute...I wish I took a picture!
Caleb has been doing great with using a switch at therapy and got one of his own from one of his nurse's for Christmas! With a bunch of cool toys that he loves! I'm getting used to the crazyness of being a mother...like this. I definitely never thought I'd be doing this at my age. But it's all for a reason...and I'll keep fighting. I don't know how people do it with more kids...like Tiffany, Abbies mom, and Sue, Luke's mom. They are awesome mothers! They're my idols! And I want to have more kids...maybe when Micaiah's five though....and by then Caleb will be completely healed! Thank you Lord!
The chiropractor appointments has been going well. To me, it seems like Caleb has been moving his head a lot more lately!!! And it's been really helping me and my bad back with all the carrying of Caleb that I've been doing!
Brandon has been feeling sick lately and I started to feel a little ill. (Just took Air Borne) Please pray that none of us will get sick...We can't afford to be sick! Also, Caleb started to wake up early in the morning again. Which means I have been getting less sleep lately. Please pray that he will sleep well throughout the night...and for all of us as well! Please continue to believe in God's miracle with us and thank him for healing Caleb everyday! God Bless you and Happy New Year too! It's gonna be a great year...Many, many blessings...you'll see.