Sorry, I've been having computer problems again. But I think we've finally got that solved! We are back from Vegas and back to reality. Vegas was good. The boys were good. The first couple of nights Caleb didn't sleep to well for my mom but the last two nights he was good. The night we came home however, he hardly slept! He kept me up all night. I think he wanted to hear all about our trip. I was tired...but he missed us. Micaiah missed us too I think. He was very clingy after awhile. He had a blast though, playing with his cousins everyday. Brandon and I enjoyed going on all the roller coaster rides and those crazy ones on the stratosphere. Vegas isn't really our "scene." But we had fun. Probably won't go back again though. It was so cold too! There was a lot of temptations for us in sin city. (of course) As we were walking down the streets of Vegas and talking we were wondering how we got there and why we were there. I mean, it was amazing that everything worked out so quickly so that we could go on our mini vacation. Was it God? Why would God want us there? Was it a test? Whatever the reason...at least we got to spend some alone time...and a lot of talking time. And despite the temptations to do things we used to do we didn't. When I was feeling tempted, Brandon helped me to reject it and vice versa. But to be honest, I think it was harder for me.
When I called home to talk to Caleb on the phone he was very excited and made the longest and loudest sound I've heard! He was trying to talk to me!...I missed the boys a lot and was very excited to come home.
I've been having a very hard time lately. Although, I was expecting that both Brandon and I would when we got back. (Reality Check) I've been so upset at God. I've been asking him a lot of questions...a lot of requests...and i'm not getting anything. Why can't he just give Caleb back his smile? All I want right now is at least that smile!...Yeah, I do want more but a smile would be good...no, great!
On Tuesday the boys had to go see their ENT (ear, nose, throat specialist) again. It was not a good appointment for Caleb. No really good news...looks like he's not close to getting his trach out. So on top of my already having a really difficult time...I got a not so good report. On our way to OT on Monday we passed by Punahou where they are setting up for their annual carnival. All I can remember is Caleb on one of those rides, sandwiched between his two cousins laughing, smiling, and having a blast on the ride. (I've got a picture of them)...and again, this adds to my dealing with my hard time. I guess I've been letting my guard down and have been letting that devil get to my emotions and my thoughts.
Caleb did really well with his movements at OT on Monday which made me quite happy. He's been going swimming more often too with his nurse. He seems to like it and apparently did really well today in the pool when Patrick asked him to do certain things. I totally missed it all. But was glad to hear all that he did. He must've had a active day today because he went to sleep really early. We all went to the chiropractor tonight a little after Brandon got home from work and on our way home he fell asleep...I hope he sleeps soundly tonight. I need a good night's rest. Micaiah got sick just before we got back from Vegas. I took him to the doctor earlier this week and found out he has walking pneumonia. He's fine though and you would never know that he's sick...except for the fact that he's got a runny nose. I just pray that Caleb does not catch a cold! We wouldn't want him to get it! I've got a lot of pictures to share and I promise I'll put it up in the next blog once I load them to my computer. Hopefully I can get that done this weekend!
I'm trying to focus on getting back on track right now...I've strayed away from God during my rough time...but I need him more than anything and I'm trying to keep my head up...
Please pray that Caleb will do something to give us a piece of hope...a BIG sign of his healing. A smile, talking,...ANYTHING! In less than one and a half months....it will be a year since Caleb's accident. I can't believe it's been almost a year already. I don't even want to think about that. I want March 6, 2008 to be a day of celebration and not a day of sorrow. I want to be able to celebrate that the Lord brought Caleb back to life a year ago. I want to praise him rather than being angry with him. I'll post a new blog soon! Just wanted to get one in quick before the weekend! God Bless!