Tears of the Past, But smiles for the hope of the future

Caleb has been doing great with the lowering of his seizure medication. There's been no complications. Please continue to pray that there will be no seizures though! Caleb has been making more and more sounds this past week. Praise God! No, it is not because of the lowering his medication...it's ALL GOD! The first time that we heard him a lot was that night when a friend came over to pray over and lay hands on Caleb. And he's been making more and more sounds since. We continue to pray over Caleb and consistently encourage him to speak...using words. As I held him in my lap tonight before he went to sleep, I kept telling him how much I want to hear him speak again. I read him stories...his favorites...the ones we used to read over and over again. He knew all the words and knew when to say it on each page. So we would read it together and take turns going through the books. I started to cry as I read one of them. I told him how much I want him to read it along with me...or read it to me again. Sometimes I try to imagine his sweet voice and his silly personality...but it's beginning to become a faint memory. And that makes me so sad! His voice is becoming so faint in my mind. I can't listen to our favorite songs in the car because he's not singing it with me...and I can't read him our favorite books because I become such a wreck. I just journaled all that I've been feeling as a prayer to God. I told him all of this and more...I know that all of this will come about again. I'm working on my faith and I'm growing everyday. But it was a hard night for me...
Last night we went to another prayer and healing service at our church! It is always such a blessing for Caleb...as well as us. Micaiah is sick again. He's getting better but please pray that he will heal quickly and that Caleb will not catch his cold...or any other colds during this season of colds going around. Brandon is also getting sick so please pray for him too.
Micaiah is going to be turning one this month! Time sure does fly by! I want to see my boys playing together...that's what I want this Christmas....that's what they want for Christmas too I'm sure.
Caleb is so special, God is going to use him mightily...he is everyday and will continue to use him even more. I'm so blessed to have him as my son...I am honored to be his mother...I am honored that God chose me to care for him and watch over him. I'm so proud of him and all that he does. I'm proud of him for always being so brave and for never giving up...for continue to fight this fight. I tell him everyday how proud I am of him and I tell him everyday to keep fighting and asking Jesus to help him...and that we will always be with him, fighting and seeking Jesus.
Other than my downer thoughts and feelings tonight, things are terrific! Brandon and I are doing wonderful and Caleb continues to stride! Thank you for your continued prayers for Caleb and our family! They make such a difference! May you be blessed too!