Life is Good...really.

First I'd like to apologize for my last blog. Brandon and I were pretty upset as I'm sure you could tell by what someone said. I wanted to delete it but we felt that people might be wondering the same things...plus, I am human...I do act in ways I wish I didn't. I think we should have cooled off a bit more before writing about it. But anyways...

Caleb is doing great. We thought he might have been coming down with a cold or something so we didn't take him to school this week. I think he was a little bummed that he didn't get to ride the car. But he is doing fine. Thank you Lord! Caleb has been doing a little better with sleeping. He is waking up in the middle of the night but at least he goes back to sleep. Brandon and I slept with him on the futon last night and he fell back asleep after a couple of hours with his head resting on my shoulder. Brandon and I are figuring out what works best for our "care schedule" for him. By the way, the message at church this Sunday was totally for us! If you missed it, check it out at www.enewhope.org
I so need to get on the ball with things I want to do for Caleb like ordering things online, getting things to make my own formula for him, and calling doctors so we can get his meds hopefully lowered. I know I mentioned before that we were going to do it on our own but we've decided not to and will talk to the doctors first. But please continue to pray that he will be able to come off ALL of his medications very soon. Please also continue to pray that he will show us his great big smile very soon!
We would like to thank all the people who play such a big part in our walk with God right now. There are so many people who have been helping us out in so many ways! Just a kind word is helpful! So thank you so much! Brandon and I are doing good now. We are in a much better place now then we have been in a long time. We just have to focus on what God wants from us and keep obeying all the things he is telling us everyday. Sometimes we miss it but we always recognize it later and realize where we went wrong and what God was trying to tell us so that the next time we are more aware.
I had a crying fit the other night. I'm trying to tackle all the cleaning that needs to be done. But everytime I do I find something of Caleb's like his drawings or old school work or pictures of him and it still affects me. So when Caleb woke up the other night I just cried and cried for the whole two hours he was up. I miss the way he was so much. I thought I was over the whole crying about it but then it came up again. And now I don't want to finish cleaning...It's hard to explain to those of you who didn't know Caleb before...or who haven't even met him yet. But he is really such a loving boy. He would tell me he loves me everyday and everyday when I dropped him off at school he wouldn't go in his class until he gave me a big kiss and hug and told me he loved me. And that's not even the biggest thing. He just had the brightest spirit and was so easy to fall in love with. (still is) I think the biggest challenge is not being able to converse with him. I was telling Caleb during my crying fit that when God completely heals him, I am going to be so selfish of him for a long time. I'm not going to want to send him to school or let anyone near him. I want him all to myself! I know that's selfish of me. But seriously, I might. Brandon said the same thing too. But don't worry, we will eventually share him. :) God is doing divine work in Caleb...he is going to miraculously heal him and I am so anxious...Not only because I miss him so much but because so many will be saved! Especially all our loved ones that still aren't. And I think that's the biggest prize. So I guess our biggest prayer request is for God's complete healing in Caleb. (As I'm sure you are all still praying for)
Tonight we had a family walk...I love those a lot. Just Brandon, Me, and the boys. It gives Brandon and I a chance to talk about a lot of things too. All in all, life is great right now. It's as great as it can be at this moment of our lives. Our biggest challenge everyday is to look beyond our circumstances (where Caleb is at). And to look towards the future...towards the day when Caleb will be all better. Anyways...I couldn't ask for more right now then continued prayers! Praise God! Thank you all so much for them! Prayers are really powerful! God Bless!